Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Blue Dragon's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, November 19th, 2003
1:33 am	My weekend Havn't posted since.. a while ago.. I went to my dads once again this weekend. Left on friday, came back for work on monday and left soon again after work. I don't have a computer there so I can't update =[... anyway.. I donno if i said before, but i FINALLY got my car.. which is of course the reason i've been gone so much =P. Anyway.. Saw a couple new movies in the past few days.. Went and saw Master and Commander [4/4 stars] and elf [1/4 stars].. Rented Bulletproof monk [4/4stars], golden eye [4/4 stars], and Hollywood Homicide [4/4 stars].. If you havn't noticed i'm a total movie freak.. i'm thinking of possible going into something related to movies =/.. who knows.. anyway, had a great weekend; was able to spend a lot of time with my girlfriend, sarah and my family. I used to be on medicine for being "Bi-Polar", but i got that all cleared up. I still take advantage of this free health clinic though cuz they can offer a lot of helpful shit for free including perhaps job placement, cheaper housing, and money for school.. My "case manager" was trying to close my case though, kinda sucked.. i'm like.. uh i really need this stuff cuz i uh.. uh.. i sleep a lot and i think it may be a mental problem, =P.. i'll try to stay in long enough to get some help in other areas out of it... Maybe i'll let them give me meds, but no take it.. pretend to be really depressed, lol.. oh well, i know it's cruel and i'm sorry for those who truely are really depressed.. anyway.. i havn't been on my computer since thursday i think.. oh how i miss it.. *tear*.. i'm back now and hopefully will post often.. seems to keep my mind off of other shit. Anyway, i have a book to read.. If any of you like reading, check out Clive Cussler. He writes sci-fi mystery.. very good stuff.. then again i like almost everything, lol.. if you are going to read a little you gotta make sure to read the lord of the rings triligy and prequel, the hobbit.. very very good.. if you think the movies are good, your right, but the books are 10x better!!! Good stuff.. anyway, i'm out.. time to finish my book.. laterzzzzzzzzzzz (Comment on this)
Friday, November 14th, 2003
12:01 am	Randomness.. Thought i'd throw down a few random things.. I didn't work today because the wind was at like 40mph and it was like 20degrees.. not roofing weather.. I really need to save a bunch of money cuz near and during winter I will be working a lot less. I am going to get a second job though.. i'll be working a ton then =/... Well today I got less pissed at my roomates so i set my computer up so josh could use it, but he can only do 3 things.. play two of his games and browse some shit on the internet.. he has absolutely no icons on the desktop, no start menu.. only 3 icons on the toolbar.. IE and 2 games he likes.. when he saw today that he couldn't get on my computer he was like "What the Fuck".. I had 3 words for him.. "Give me respect".. of course when that happens i'll open up a little bit more on the computer, but what i've given him so far is more than i should based on his dick-headed ways lately.. oh wel... Tomorrow i get to see Sarah, yay! I don't know what we'll do, but hopefully something fun.. Originally Sarah was going to come over, but Beth and Josh are going to have a couple over for dinner, so i decided to go out instead.. oh well.. despite their lack of anything good sent in my direction i will still be courteous and respectful.. i'm too nice.. oh well.. Hopefully i'll get my car's wheels fixed this weekend as well so i can finally drive it.. would be awesome.. I really really really want to see the movie Master and Commander.. I was going to see it with my mom, but she told me today that my grandma wants to see it with her.. i'm like WTF.. not because she's not seeing it with me, but because my grandma NEVER leaves the house.. Every thanksgiving, and christmas for the last 20 years my family goes to a movie, but my grandma never goes.. i guess she really really likes this movie then.. hmm.. Lately i've noticed that i'm losing a lot of the articulation that i have and am always pausing looking for words.. it really sucks.. i most have lost like 20iq points in the last year, lmao.. anyway.. cuz of this I decided to start reading again.. When i was younger i used to go in reading sprees.. meaning i'd read like a book every 2 days or so for weeks on end.. then i'd stop.. for months.. and then do it again.. so i pulled out a book that i bought when i was tweleve, lol.. its crazy.. it's a 500 page book.. Cyclops by Clive Cussler.. I can't believe i was able to understand this when i was tweleve.. anyway.. i used to read this author a lot.. read over a dozen books by him... I remember why now.. his writing is excellent!! Its sci-fi mystery.. very very nice.. i'm taking it slow though.. about 30pages a day or so.. anyway, off to read my 30pages =] (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 13th, 2003
12:46 am	HAHAHAHAH.. i'm evil like i said.. my roomies pissed me off and they are no longer using my computer.... i set it up like this... about 8 seconds into boot a password comes up set in bios which is very difficult to hack even though they know shit about computers.. alright.. lets say they get passed it.. once windows boots i have it set so a password AND user name is required to log in.. lmao.. alrighty.. lets say they get passed that.. windows fully loads and user settings are loaded.. another password promt comes up with a nice flame in the background.. mwahah.. alrighty.. so lets say i leave my computer.. oh well.. a password is required to do ANYTHING.. load the internet, any games, any chat, anything.. god i'm evil.. but man oh man i love security administration =].. peace (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
11:57 pm	a woohoo and a fuck that... The woohoo -I got my car transfered today, FINALLY.. now just one more step.. I need to get the tires inflated and taken to a tire store to be resealed.. easy $30 -Got to see my girlfriend, my dad, and sister today -Probably get to see my mom this weekend.. --little info-- My girlfriend, my dad, and my sister all live about half an hour away.. not too bad.. my mom though lives 2hrs away.. sucks big time The fuck thats My roomates... Like I said before i rent my house with 2 roomates who are married to each other they are josh [27] and beth [29].. so 10yrs older than me.. Josh and I work together, but despite the fact he's 8 years older i make more money, mwahahah.. anyway, beth sits her ass at home all day and does jack shit.. although she used to be somewhat nice and do my laundry [i'd pay her for it] and help clean my room.. now she's just an out and out bitch.. josh has turned into a dick.. heres the fuck that.. we pay $140 a week for rent.. i pay $50, they pay $90.. not too bad, but in reality i should only be paying 1/3 which is $43.. oh well.. 7 dollars a week.. here is the TOTAL BULLSHIT though.. i pay half of all the utilities, half the cable [when i don't even watch it] I pay for my own computer access which i let them use [but not for long] and i pay for half the groceries.. Now my dad also brings about $40 worth of groceries per week, yet i still pay half.. FUCK THAT. It is really really sad, but they are ALWAYS borrowing money from me despite the fact they are much older.. shows what they've done with their lives.. anyways.. i always gladly lend them money and they do pay it back.. well the other day when i stayed home from work to get my car shit done Josh asked to borrow money for lunch.. I had about $200 cash and the smallest bill was a $20 so i said no.. that would bring me down to $180 and i didn't know if that would be enough to get all the shit done with my car.. anyway.. i didn't get my car shit done anyway, and just slept cuz i was pissed.. i woke up and Josh was bitching at me cuz i didn't lend him money.. what a fucking ass.. anyway, totally pissed me off.. wait.. theres more The cable and cable modem are in my name.. i had it set up to pay $10 a month for 50 cable channels which was a GREAT deal.. they paid half.. whoopdedo.. $5.. then i pay $30 for my cable modem shit.. anyway.. one day josh calls our cable company to "get an estimate on full digital".. they said $110 a month!!!!!! So a few days later while Josh and I are at work the company comes to install this bullshit digital.. They fucking installed it with beths signature!!!!!! They wanted $70 installation + $110 a month.. SCREW THAT... so i cancled it yesterday.. My bill would have ben over $200 dollars.. When i cancel it i'm like.. alright.. just gimme the 50 channels for the $10... they are like.. sorry.. can't do that.. so now it's all fucked up.. if I want to go back to those 50channels they want $45 a month now.. total bullshit.. anyways.. they totally fucked everything up and of course it's my fault.. damn.. what idiots.. oh well.. fuck it.. alright enough ranting for tonight.. i'm out. =] (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:15 am	funny shit I just read this and HAD to post it.. it's too true.. Ten things you will never hear a woman say.. 1-Hey, pull my finger 2-Is that phone for me? Tell em i'm not here. 3-I don't care if it is on sale.. 300 dollars for a designer dress is too much 4-Aww, don't stop for directions.. i'm sure you'll be able to find how to get there 5-Honey, does this make my butt look too small? 6-Can our relationship get a little more physical? i'm tired of being just friends. 7-And for our honeymoon, we are going fishing in alaska. 8-Oh dear, this diamond is WAY too big 9-Can we just not talk to each other tonight? i'd rather just watch tv 10-what do you mean todays our anniversary? told you it was funny =P (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
11:28 pm	plans killed again =/.. Well today, like many other days previously i had plans to get my car stuff done.. The woman whom i'm buying the car from [my second mom] had the day off so she said she would pick me up and take me to the sos to get the car transfered and all.. okay cool.. i took the day off work yet again and was quite optimistic about getting the car. About 12:45 she calls me, which was right about when she said she would, but instead of saying she was on her way to pick me up she reminds me that it is verterans day and the sos is closed.. well fuck!!! how depressing yet again.. i'm thinking god doesn't want me to have this car, lol.. well anyway.. tomorrow is wednesday and the day the sos is open utnil seven.. so i'm going to work and my dad is going to pick me up when i'm done.. [luckily the house i'm roofing is actually close to him].. he's then going to take me to his house and at 5:30 i'm going next door to get the car stuff done.. I pray that everything comes through... *prays*.. I dunno why, but i feel like putting down a little more info about my life tonight so here goes.. my life.. I don't know if i've said this anywhere before, but i'm 19 years old.. so about 19 years, 1 month, and ten days ago i was born.. in troy, michigan.. Now troy is in Oakland county which is either the first, second, or third richest counties in the whole u.s. so i had it going pretty good.. i lived in a nice little half million dollar house, my parents drove around in caddillacs and all was good... My dad at one point owned a company worth alomst 100 million, but that was before i was alive and beofre it went bankrupt.. anyways... I was a smart kid, a happy kid [or so i'm told].. i played soccer for 11 years or so, 2 of which were playing for best team in the midwest.. in 5th grade one of my doctors found out i had a heart murmmer caused by a hole in my heart. It wasn't much of a big deal, but since i was so active with soccer they thought it would be best to fix it.. so my parents searched for the best doctors and in 6th grade i had a PDA [patent-ductus-arteriorosis or something like that] where they put a small coil in my heart to fill up the hole.. yay.. nothing big there.. Shortly after my mother was diagnoses with MS [multiple sclorosis or whatever] and ended up losing her job because of it.. MS is chronic so she still has it and always will.. anyway.. a few years later my mom decided to divorce my dad.. sad.. it was my moms third divorce as well as my dads third divorce.... well like usual the divorce, it was pretty ugly.. my parents fought over almost everything down to the can openers.. eventually my dad ended up keeping our house and paying my mom half the equity [+ or -] which she used to buy a condo nearby... my sister [21yrs old] and I moved in with my mom and lived there for about 2 years... throughout this whole ordeal i was hospitalized 3 times for depression/drug use.. the first time they said i was severly depressed, the seoncd time they said i was bipolar, and the third time they just thought i was crazy due to drug use.. because of all this shit i ended up dropping out of school just after i turned 16.. a few months later i was kinda in college at LTU enrolled in a special program [AtA] which allowed me to take all college classes, but get high-school and college credit.. after a semester there i dropped out.. about the time i turned 17 i went to an alternative high school to hopefully finish highschool [2 years behind now] and go on to college.. never happened.. i went there for 5 quarters.. the first i finished, the second i got kicked out of, third i finished, fourth i got kicked out of, and fifth i decided to drop and get my GED.. soo I got my GED and got a 780/800, took my act and got a 32/36 and went for college.. well about the same time i got my GeD my mom's company went bankrupt which forced her to sell her condo and move in with her parents.. my sister and i went to my dads who at the same time had to go in for heart surgery.. an aortic valve replacement.. now this surgery was completely uninsured and would cost my dad almost half a million dollars.. between this, having no job, and owing money elsewhere he declared bankruptcy... He told me the house would be repossed soon and i would have to find a place to live.. so i did, which is where i live now and have been for the last 5 months or so.. I applied to U of M, michigan state, and a few other colleges in the area.. thanks to my high act and ged i was accepted to all of them, buut can't afford them worth shit.. so here i am now.. working my ass off roofing, putting 80% of my money into bills, and not able to afford college and thus getting dumber and dumber every day, lol.. It seems my life is just filled with a ton and ton of negatives.. but its really not and i try not to forget this.... i think i'll make a list of good things =] Good things in my life -My beautiful, smart, nice, funny girlfriend of almost a year who i love dearly with all my heart and pray i am lucky enough to someday wed.. Sarah -My caring family who gives all they can even though it may not be a lot.. my mother.. father.. sister.. and joe [ my sister's fiance ] who i all love dearly as well. -My intelligence, personality, and lack of satisfaction when things are not going as well as i believe they should.. -My god, my church, my religion and my beliefs.. -My computer, lmao Hey i guess thats it!! But when i think about it i realize.. thats all that really matters.. anyway, i think i'm going to tie this up now.. but before i go i'd like to put up my favorite poem which is also my LJ username.. Invictus.. Invictus-- William Earnest Henly OUT of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance 5 I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, 10 And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: 15 I am the captain of my soul. Goodnight =] (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 10th, 2003
6:20 pm	Back Yeah.. i've been gone all weekend =/.. Saturday my dad picked me up from work cuz i was feelin shitty and I don't have my own car yet.. heres the thing though.. i'm supposed to.. About a month ago i bought a car from my mom's best friend [who is also my dad's neighbor].. The first thing i did was get insurance on the car.. did that about a month ago.. the next step is to get the title of the car and transfer it.. after 3 weeks of trying to get the title from the owners they tell me they have lost it!! Sooo he said he would go to secretary of state [sos] and get a new one.. took him four days to do that, but he did it on friday.. sooo while at my dads house [Sunday] i went next door to ask him about it. he tells me.. "They said it would take ten days or so to come in the mail.. blah blah.. so i thought we could go to the SOS and transfer it.. that way when it comes in the mail it will already be in your name..".. so i'm like.. cool.. great.. he told me to call him today at noon and we would do that.. so i take off work, stay at my dads house once again [egh] and call him today at noon.. no answer.. figures.. called his cell.. no answer.. called him every 5-10minutes for an hour.. no friken answer.... so whatever.. i get all pissed off.. had a shitty day.. finally i'm like fuck it.. and now i'm stuck another day.. or two or 3.. or week or month without my car =/.... Oh well.. enough focusing on the depressing shit.. I did get to see one of my favorite movies, rainman and see my girlfriend a bit.. good stuff there.. oh well i'm out... video game time.. i missed em =P (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 7th, 2003
11:30 pm	It's about 11:30 now.. I just got home from the movies.. FINALLY got to see the 3rd matrix movie today.. little fyi here.. i'm totally obsessed with the matrix. I have seen the first one about 40 times, the second one about 15, and today finally saw the third one.. yeah, it's sad.. figure thats almost 5 full days of my life.. wow.. Anyway, it was a great movie even to the non-matrix-obsessees although some points were disappointing and the story line was less of a focus than the amazing special effects.. another fyi here.. the woman who played the oracle in the first and second [forget her name] died during the filming which is why there is a new actress in the third one, [which was played out rather poorly].. not only did i dislike the change, but i despise the fact she gave the oracle a completely new personality.. ex.. the original oracle was less talkative and a little more straight-forward.. the original and new oracles also seem to work a little differently although i can't exactly put into words what i can see and feel.. oh well.. screw articulation i guess, grr.. alright, i'm out.. off to play some vid games (6 Comments |Comment on this)
1:00 pm	Put up a picture [icon]! Looks like shit, but woot! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:37 am	First post.. nov 7, 03... 12:30am [Let me first ask forgiveness for my poor grammer, and spelling mistakes] Hey, this is obviously my first post although i'm not 100% sure why I am posting here. I guess it is because I am very stressed lately and need a place to vent. In reality I'm not quite convinced anybody will ever read this, but if they do.. cool =P. [Although i secretly hope that someone stumbles upon this and finds me somewhat intriguing] I guess i should start with a little information on myself and then i can go from there. My name is Erik although via the net i am generally called Blue or Dragon or.. BlueDragon if you care to say that every time we converse. I'm a 19 year old male living in michigan. I live away from my parents and share a duplex with a married couple who are 27 and 29. For a living i make halloween costumes for the under-represented midgets of the world, but sometimes I am a roofer.. [If you don't know what that is and sadly some people ask.. I build the roofs for your house, apartment, duplex, whatever.. ] so if your parents ever tell you take them for granted and you forget that they "put a roof over your head".. they lie.. I'm the one who does that.. Continuing... To the perpetual disappointment of my parents [and myself] I am [to my everlasting regret] not in college due to a series of poor choices conducted in the last 5 or so years. [Which i will later bore you with]... I am currently in the painful process of quitting smoking as well as fighting an annoying cold, so i am quite irritable, stressed, and none-the-less grumpy!! Shall I continue on with a description of my oh so admireable characteristics??? I shall... As for physcial appearence.. Well I find myself to be a rather attrative 19 year old and often find myself [oh such redundance] staring into the mirror for hours.. jk.. anyway... i'm about 5'7 give or take a few feet, have rusty blonde hair, and blue eyes. Due to working out and making halloween costumes for midgets, the occasional roofing, and the blessing of a high metabolism, I am very slim, yet well built [roar] and weigh in at an amazing 140lbs, woot!! Alrighty, now for the unimportant stuff.. personality.. [blah]... I am an intelligent kid with a decent non-cliche sense of humor. I really try not to take life so serious.. i mean.. after all it's only life, eh? Despite this I am often mildly depressed due to my static.. static.. static enviornment of negativitiy and lack of accomplishment. [aka not being in school]. If i were to say that i was the typical guy, i'd be a liar, thus making me the typical guy which is something i do not want. I have goals when it comes to my ethics and morals, mostly due to surrounding myself in a optimistic enviornment throughout my ethic-developing years.. I feel it necessary to treat people with respect, honesty, and virtue, although naturally I do fail on the too-often occasion. I was raised by my sister, my mother, and a wonderfully kind and sensitive father whom have shapped me into a person with moral standards and the ability and desire to treat people [especially women] with the utmost respect. Despite this attribute I find it hard to find and stay with a girl for a very long period of time, and even when i find a girl who may be "absolutely perfect" I drive myself away after a few long months... 95% of the time I will break up with this great girl who reciprotically gives me a good relationship... sad.. [With this i'll flip to the next subject of what i want in life] Life is a very mysterious thing, but its mystery makes it what it is, for if it were able to be understood we would lose the most prevailing force that drives us on.. the search for purpose. Now, at this moment, what i seek more than anything is the settling with the higher power i believe in so endlessly. Secondly [which can more easily be related to the typical desires] I desire a love so powerful that it can nearly be tantamount to that which is described in first corinthians [although such can never truely be equaled]. Like most things i want, I really don't know where to start in order to find it, despite being something that is rather spontaneous versus something that I must build up to such as my next desire.. Success.. Yes I desire success.. Success in wealth, although not too much in power nor fame.. But the success i desire for most is to successfully use the talents and intelligence that has given to me to the greatest extent. I know i have been blessed with amazing intelligence and many other qualities that are great. [Trying not to be egotistical =/] I want to take these blessing and do something with them, perhaps change the world, or help in doing such.. What i believe i need in order to make this happen is Inspiration and Passion.. Sadly I have neither.. Anyway, I am going to cut this short [not really short, but compared to my usual.. its quite short as there is muc more].. As you can see i can love to talk and hope to continue posting.. Farewell for now.. The demand for midget costumes is high and the supply is low!! Goodnight =] ~Erik (3 Comments |Comment on this)